I said yes.
This past week, my best friend popped the question and I said yes. And let me tell you, I am a happy happy girl. I could write many blog posts and preach many messages about the goodness and faithfulness of the Lord based solely on my experiences in this relationship. Someday I’ll share the stories and the miracles that took place that led to his heart joining with mine. But for today, I’ll keep my musings simple and encourage you with the words found in Psalm 37:4, “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of His heart.” I read these words standing in a Barnes and Nobles minutes before my boyfriend proposed to me. After a lovely evening at one of my favorite restaurants, we took a walk in downtown West Hartford surrounded by beautiful Christmas lights. On a whim, we went inside a Barnes and Noble (the first place he ever took me for that first cup of coffee) and while I was in the bathroom he purchased the bear pictured above. While I was making my way back from the lady’s room, I took a quick stroll through the Christian book section. I picked up a devotional and opened it to the page already marked. I read about the goodness of God and of how when we delight ourselves in Him, He gives us our hearts desires.
Over the past year, I have had to lay my dreams on the altar of surrender many times to pursue a deeper relationship and intimacy with Christ. I have had to put my trust in my heavenly daddy to provide for my every need at times when it felt like all Hell was breaking loose in my life. Day by day the Lord has pushed me to greater levels of faith as I have chosen to believe for the impossible and to hope for restoration in every area of my life.
Just shy of a year ago, I laid this relationship on the altar. In an act of surrender and obedience, I walked away from something I greatly desired to delight myself in God first and to allow Him to do some work in my heart that needed to be done. I gave up my natural fight and chose instead to take the battle to my prayer closet. In that place of prayer, God healed and transformed my heart. At the same time, God was healing and bringing heart transformation to the man that will now be my husband. Although I couldn’t know the outcome at the time, my faith, obedience and willingness to delight myself in God first prepared me for this season, in which God is giving me my utmost desires. Only God can take something broken and make it more beautiful than it was before. I reflected on all of this standing in that book aisle. I thanked God for His love and all His many blessings and in an attitude of joy and thanksgiving, I left the store.
Minutes later my boyfriend handed me that bear. I reached my hand inside it and pulled out a gorgeous diamond ring. The ring represents a promise. Not only from my fiancé, but from my heavenly daddy. When you delight yourself in God, even if it means letting go of all else, He truly gives you what your heart really desires.